BEST TO WORST

Somewhere in the journey of my life i went throug a line...

why its so... why its so... why we r not able to do things we realy want to do.. why our deed of yesterday destroying our today.. why i thinking too much about her.. probably i love her...no no no... not at all just i waant to talk her.. c is just my friend...i cant live with her entire life... then why she is always coming to my mind...if i dont talk to her i feel smthing unusual i cant express in word but smthing which is not comfortable dat i can say by sure...i became somewhat jealous...when c dont messsge me n wen i dont get call from her i feel realy sad...c used to call other friend c used to tecx to her other friend..bt because of my small fault c just tryng to ignore me..c always use to say i m not change.. i msame dat girl but c changed lot not with other may be only wid me..but whatever i respect her i want to see her always smiling..c is very deceptive in front of me..i believe in her blindly but c broke my trust.. always c trys to show me attitude..k i dnt mind its my fault..bt what to do..why it happen in life if someone respect you very much,sm1 care 4 u very much but u dnt evn care at all...n always tryng to hurt him...what a friend if its called attitudde I never want to have it I m fine without having it But above all, contemplate all that i have been through in the 6 semester. i lost my swing. I lost my fans. I lost my health. Controversy, some bad memories followed me like a faithful pet. I lost my one friend who was just ever thing for me.. I almost ruined my life. I hung in there. And today I am taking myself out from every hurdle... With prayer, with commitment and with smile.. And above all because of some good friend like xyz they realy help me lot.. god

very very thanku for giving such a great friend.. now I m almost recovered but still smtimes dat old memories cm to my mind and give sweet painbut now it dont make me cry it make me laugh on mehow stupid I was.. I m very bad in recognising person