10 Mar 2017

ENGL 101

Samir Pokharel

Stepping into whole new journey

Wake up, my mom said with a little bit irked voice from the narrow corridor of

my new apartment. I stretched my arms threw warm blanket and replied her Mum it's

just 7. She emphatically said, it's the 1st day of your college,wake up you are almost

[Link] was the first day of my college after about six months. I glanced at my phone and

realize that I must get ready now. I ran to the bathroom for my daily routine. My brain

was full of conflict for a new day of my life. That day I felt like little child who fears new

place. Thought about new environment of new college was killing me inside. Hey still in

the bathroom? one more warning from mom pushed me to finish my thirty minutes

routine in five minutes.

My backpack was ready from last night as I was also somehow excited to grab

the new opportunity. I took my car keys with important stuff and left the home.

Meanwhile when I was thinking about school I forgot to say bye to my mom. A question

popped up in my mind How can I forget my mom on this very major day of my life.

Then I took my phone and gave her a call. She wished me all the best and I felt

blessed. It was cold. I stared at car dashboard which showed the temperature of 38F. I

turned the heater on which took me to the memories of my old elementary school days

where I used to wear a worn jacket, walked several minutes to reach my school with all

my friends. It stunned me when I remembered how my mom use to hold my hand and

drop me to school, kiss my forehead and say something about my future when we
separated. I was around 10 years and I was never serious about such stuffs at that

very age. My time use to pass with friends and soccer. When I used to reach near

school gate I used to run to the ground without even waving to my mom. But whenever I

turned back I could see her looking at me making sure I reach there safely.

[Link] of page 12. My vice-principle yelled in a croaky voice My

hands were full of popcorns and mouth with soda. I threw the popcorns from my hand

and tried to act innocent I stood up and asked what was that sir? My friends were

looking at me sympathetically because they knew that our vice-principal was strict and

nobody ever had guts to ask him to repeat himself in front of the class. He yelled read

last paragraph of page 12 you dumb I rolled my eyes at the last two benches but

unfortunately there was not a single book at desk in that whole area. I look at my best

friend to left seeking some help from him but he was also looking at me and giggling.

We try to control our laugh but it was not going to stop at all. Then we just burst out loud

hahaha... The teacher came to me, grab my right ear with his rough hand, pull me

out of the bench and push me towards the door. Get out of my class he warned loudly

proving himself to be very strict. I waved my hands and signed my friends telling bye

without any shame. Again, burst of laugh started. I quickly ran out of the door before he

notices those unwanted stuffs from me. The scenario where I was the naughtiest and

careless student in my school life back then.

It was in 2008 when I got the results of my 6th-grade final exams which shocked

me after I saw F in my grades. It was clearly visible how my mom pale face turned into

black and her eyes were in full of tears. She grabbed mark sheet from the table and just

replied thanks to my class teacher. I said bye to the teacher and went home with her. No
any single words were spoken between us in those 2 miles long walk; from school to

home. As soon as we reached home she ran to her room. When I was entering my

room, I noticed that she was sobbing which made me felt so embarrassed on self. I ran

to my room, locked door laying on the bed facing down. I could feel my pillow wet with

my tears. I was disappointed and felt hopeless as I could do nothing now. I was in a

dilemma now. What do i do next?? What am i going to do in the upcoming year?? I will

become a joke in front of the whole school!! These were the thoughts that were going

on in my brain. Days passed by and it was the time i go to school again.

Again, time came to be back to school. I was in sad mood with pained face,

same backpack same half torn book, in the same class just without the same friends

and fun. No sound, no words in same last bench with completely new faces. I use to

see my old best friends with completely new classroom, new teacher, reading new

syllabus but I was in same old class with the same course. In recess, I tried to talk with

my old friends but they use to avoid me. By chance when we meet face to face they use

to throw me a bad face calling me failure. The scenario was even worse when my dad

stopped talking to me nicely and my brother started behaving rudely which repeatedly

made me realize that I had failed. Everyone started ignoring and insulting me with their

behaviors which made me feel low. Every word they said pounded in my ears whenever

I used to open my books.

Lots of questions came to my mind like Was I fail because I didn't read

properly? Was I really not reading well? Did I disappointed my mom hope, her

struggle to make me up here? After a deep thought and consideration to self I

recollected all my confident and concentrated on my studies. My mom was the only one
who never lost hope from me and always encouraged me. I made a schedule followed

that and started reading properly. I moved to first seat and did good friendship with

toppers. I actively participated in school activities. I used to complete all my

assignments on time and do my best. My teachers started encouraging me after seeing

my efforts. They were happy for me because they notice that I had changed. My mom

was noticing everything but didn't say a word. And it was time for the final exam after 1

year. But I was changed I was no more me like last year. I gave exam and on result day

I asked mom to come with me to get my results because I knew I had given 100%.I told

her that everything was going to be fine this time.

We entered the school and I could see my class teacher smiling at me. I greeted

her and she congratulated me and told me that I had topped my class this time. I

screamed YAHOO!! I cried with excitement and hugged mom with joy. My mom was in

tears after she heard what the teacher said. I proudly went back home and showed my

result to all who called me a failure. It was like a slap to all those who discouraged me. I

recovered from whatever had happened to me that year and carried on with some

sweet memories. After that day I committed to myself that I will do better and never ever

let go of what I achieved. Every time I got good grades I showed it to mom because she

was the one who was by my side. She always encouraged me to study.

Then I realized self-confidence is necessary if you want to lead a successful life. I

am grateful to all my friends who called me a failure because they are the one who gave

me the courage to fight with myself and be what I am today. Since then, I am always

focused on my career and joining the college was the next journey to my life .I realized

I was late so I changed gear and drove fast to my first day of college.