The main point of monster is love vs nihilism.
Johan was stripped of his emotions, names, memories and pretty much his soul.
He didnt know the value of life. His philosophy is that only everyone is equal at
death. The opposite of Tenma's,
Which is love and that all lives are equal and worth saving.
Johan thinks their mother chose him to be taken away, as if he wasnt loved enough,
she didnt refuse, she chose him to dissapear.
and that's when he started becoming the monster.
There was only one thing he loved, one connection, his sister. He cared about
nobody else but his sister.
Things changed when Nina / Anna caught him in the act .. Anna saw him as a monster.
He lost his connection and purpose in life.
So he tells Anna to kill him. To shoot him in the head, as if to ask Anna "Look at
me, do I deserve to die? Am I a monster? Shoot me if you dont love me, like how
mother gave me away. Anna shoots him.
But he survives! and he realizes his purpose in life... which is that people are
only equal in death and he wants to enforce his ideal to the world.
He keeps getting a close chance at death, he points to his head when confronted to
test fate, and survives again and again....
Despite everything, he still loves Anna.
Things changed again when he read bonaparta's book and regains his memory. He then
decides he has to kill bonaparta for everything he's done.
His perfect plan was to have Bonaparta killed, and have Tenma shoot him to death.
This would prove that no matter what, we're only equal in death.
Bonaparta dies in front of him and Tenma... It's all going according to plan.
Tenma is about to shoot him BUT Nina comes & stops him.
Near the end, Nina realized what Johan truly lost. His connection to her, the only
person he cared about.
She realized she denied Johan at the chance of being loved when she shot him to
death.
So she tells him.... "I forgive you, even if we're the only people in the world.. I
forgive you."
It is actually so sad, because despite that he doesn't believe in it and so he
points the gun at Wim, so that tenma will shoot him.
He wants to test fate again, because he truly believes in his nihilistic philosophy
and that were all equal in death.
Dramatic music plays, and DESPITE Johan's perfect calculations, fate intervenes and
he gets shot by an outside source.
Yet.. Johan survives... AGAIN, because of Tenma.
But this time, he realizes that, like Tenma said. "ALL LIVES ARE EQUAL AND WORTH
SAVING "
He doesnt commit suicide, he escapes and lives a normal comftorable life.
It's a beautiful story about love and nihilism ......
