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cheshire
01:57
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i trained to do it right
conditions fully uncontrolled
restrained and misaligned
i lit the bunsen burner on my own
it's incredible
the things you find out for yourself
i used to be an animal but i am turning into something else
you need to hold me accountable
or else i'm sure to waste away
i've slowly become vegetable
might help to scare myself awake
one way to kill my mind
don't wait, save it all for me
i'm down to sacrifice
don't waste your energy on me
before i'm carried away
i'll make a counter offer
can't begin to say what it's like
need a way to help me turn it down
it spoke to me in rhyme
in coded polyrhythm
can't think clear to save my life
help me please i think i fucked it up
if you zoom out far enough it starts to feel familiar
although your perception's so distorted you can't even talk about it
everything you're living through was leading up to this decision
and you're slowly realizing it's all more than you can handle
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card
02:34
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vision's blurred
my mistake
giving up control i'm going pharmaceutical
energy for days
let it go to waste
baby please remember you're not invincible
i've been tryna tell you something that you don't really wanna hear
fractalized in dialogue that goes on and on
they've been tryna sell you something that you know you don't really need
i won't stop the way you live it goes on and on
four a.m.
wide awake
is this worth the price you paid
no more lies from now on
certain truths you can't outrun
beam it up high
beam it out down below
take it outside
so i don't have to see it any more
if you won't talk to me
forever hold your peace
don't leave it all for me to do when you won't be around
it doesn't bother me
i'm out of empathy
when you get burned don't count on me to come and bail you out
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pulsar
02:24
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big red devil loomin in the sky
can't you tell i've never been this high before
oh i forget what the problem was
it makes it easy to ignore
debit or credit boy i'm gonna need it
i know i've been here
you know you've been here
it doesn't matter
where you were before
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edge of time
03:26
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so they didn't need you for today
try to make it back in time about an hour ago
when did you get so easy to replace
but at the back of my mind i know i'm probably gone for good
i don't wanna call a manager
but i need to calm you down
i don't wanna cause a problem here
but i need to calm you down
(take it like a human!)
well i don't think you know
what i'm happy for but it feels good
the daylight seems to wait here
to balance something in me
when i don't feel right
and so we ride the ferris wheel
along the edge of time
what if i need to run away
it wanders in the breeze no matter where i go
pace around the room til you're okay
it slumbers in the seed of everyone i know
and when i sleep it's all the same
cuz the patterns in my head they still remain
running wild my weak lucidity
all i want is some consistency
i thought i told you what you wanted to know
it's like an avalanche of permanent snow
i can't even tell what's breaking me
we still inhabit indeterminate space
i'm gonna ride it til this shit goes away
i don't even care what's chasing me
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dice
01:08
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stop hey flip it around
find a way to drain the noise inside of me
stop hey how does that sound
little beads of slow-release amphetamine
i need for a reason to believe in myself in you
don't need for a boiling pot to seethe in
maybe you do
what if i told you that you could lose your senses
if you carry on that way
would the consequences be so much worse than anything you're trying to escape
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poppers
03:13
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set a triple alarm fire
raging smoke detector in your skull
need i dismay you?
common sense is too impatient
i don't have the time to hose you down
with needless grievance
let me word this cut and dry because you sound legitimately unaware
constantly implied attraction's not enough to stimulate a love affair
that condom in your wallet pocket just in case you figure out what turns me on
won't do much good to get me going in the way you're banking on
you've been trying way too hard for someone with that much ambition
maybe take it down a notch for both our sakes
where have you been hiding lately
i've been trying to call you all damn night
i've been studiously researching
and they don't have the power to indict
baby i'm impulsive i got everything you need
put my cigarette out on your skin and push it til it bleeds
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inbox
04:18
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i'd like to be everything you want
give me one good reason right now
why i shouldn't just hang up the call
cuz when we had a moment alone and you said you need it bad
did you even mean it
did you even want to
cuz when i catch you online
you're so quick to make me change my mind
so tell me if you think you're up to try
we could take it easier next time
(call me when you need me)
i wanna be next to you
hey did you get my message
i said i wanted to know if you're still interested
i made a lot of mistakes with you before
and i fully understand if you don't want to associate any more
it's okay if you don't want to come back and see me again
it's understandable if you don't want to see me again
but i gotta say
1 he had reason to testify
2 she had reason to sex the guy
sit down and take my money
i've been in love so many times before
it's hard to tell
so if i fall in love again
i won't have the energy to drag myself all the way back home
with my tail between my legs
and i live inside those memories
i let them have their way with me
you're cordially invited to the place i find inside myself
where everybody knows
oh the way you make me feel
woah and that's why i need you to stay with me
i know it's hard to wait this long
i hate to watch you carry on this way
this time i'll let the petals fall
for now i'll leave it all unanswered
we took a taxi to the river in the middle of the night
couldn't focus on the moment i was so preoccupied
loving arms around me in the backseat
fingers down my spine
drifting through your lips, my mind it wanders
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spiral eyes
00:51
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when you kissed me in your friend's apartment
i could feel your racing heartbeat as i fell asleep
when we awoke my metronome had readjusted to it
running naked in the hotel lobby
we were changing all the clocks to resonate in tune
ring a bell i'm hypnotized
i'll leave the rest up to you
oh baby let's get married
we were star-crossed lovers divine
it's time we cut a truce
while my path keeps bending
it always leads back to you
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brighter day
04:15
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if i could wake up next to you
when the morning comes around
balancing our entropy for a brighter day
i would breathe myself anew
someone better, more profound
so i could grace your presence with a shade of something kinder
so i could grace your presence with a different shade of blue
i don't wanna seem bitter to you
i don't wanna be selfish i don't wanna be spiteful
i wanna win bigger for you
drippy flowers entwined, energetic delightful boy
it's up in the air if it's venomous now to fill my head up with all that noise
but it steals all the fun if i tell all our mutual friends
about the way that i feel when i look at your picture
i just wanna be myself for you
thousand miles an hour
give me something to believe in
burn the place, devour
i could play this all night long
turn the beat around
just tell me when you're leaving
i'm incognito in your ears
custom signal to your brain
and i know that with your charm you could find anywhere to rest your weary head
but i'd gladly sell my night if it means i could spend some time with you instead
i wanna finish on your face in this godforsaken place
and i'll be free to make illogical statements again
another autumn breeze would surely knock me on my knees
don't wanna leave
can we just box the day outside and bring it all the way back home?
if you can hear me
i can hear you too
i know it's hard to breathe
when your head is on fire
and your heart is off-beat
but i'll embrace the day even though i'm feeling weak
cuz you're someone worth fighting for
and it's a sloppy way to commandeer your life
given all the virgin blood you've sacrificed
for something so intangible
but all that fades away when you're in love
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10. |
kittycat heartthrob
03:03
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you can drown in that sea of possibility
or you can take some time to figure it out yourself
because you're young and you're broke
living in perpetual smoke
and it would be a grave misstep to pull you out from all that freedom
but goddamn you're the one for me
i can feel it pounding in my chest
your intent feels so much better uncompressed
i know the women dancing in my dreams would like to have a word with you
but i'm impatient
and you're full-grown
maybe in a different lifetime we'd have ended up in love
one where i'm the thing you need and you're the one i'm thinking of
well you're here right now and i'm looking at your face
you sparkle like a diamond and i wonder how you taste
there's lots of thoughts and layers it's all messy in my head
but i still can't keep from hanging on to every word you've said
you place a paw upon my lap i melt like kinetic sand
i wanna be your sweetheart - no - a member of your band
i tried to fill the hollow with the phases of the moon
but every single one has come up empty without you
so paint my face with roses and i'll glamourize your hair
we're dancing in the mirror i'm so happy that you're there
i think you're the bees knees you think i'm the cat's meow
maybe in a different lifetime - well how about right now?
the polar night is ending and the sun is poking through
i wanna be together at the end of the world with you
maybe i'm predictable, i'm sure it's nothing new but
i wanna be together at the end of the world with you
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ashley ninelives Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
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