1. |
Jaw Locked
03:58
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Same room long distance
Avoidant attachment
I think mine's anxious
So what even happens Next?
The first shot
Went off
I could see myself fall Worse off
Getting up
Tryna stop it all
I got
Jaw locked
Oh I got
Jaw locked
Ok what is it
redundant affection?
Well then you've heard it
Can I repeat myself Then?
The first shot
Went off
I could see myself fall
Worse off
Getting up
Tryna stop it all
I got
Jaw locked
Oh I got
Jaw locked
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2. |
Electrical Tower Dive
03:42
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I'm light headed
Walking the high wire
I look back and it
Friggin starts on fire
I'll toe the line,
Make it all go quiet
I always feel like
I'm on the outside
Looking in
But no not this time
I'll climb up as high
As i can
Where i can see everything
I wanna see everything
I'll climb
The electrical tower
If i survive
I'll shower
Your house with flowers On my way down
Never said it,
I guess I've dreamt of flying
Well I guess,
Now is my time!
I'll toe the line Make it all go quiet!
I always feel like I'm on the outside
Looking in
But no not this time I'll climb up as high
As I can
Where I can see everything
I wanna see everything
I'll climb
the electrical tower
If I survive
I will shower
Your house with flowers On my way down
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3. |
Buzzed And Bleached
01:58
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Throwing hands in my sleep
My hair was cut, it was buzzed and bleached
Tossing, trying, shooting sheep
Why is it a million degrees?
My walls are up,
But not high enough
I'm all shut off
And this is where i'm stuck?
The sun's been gone six months!
Taking slams, I got bloody knees Blacked out knocked out my front teeth But I finally got to feel some peace
It put me out of my misery
My walls are up,
But not high enough
I'm all shut off
And this is where i'm stuck?
The sun stayed up six months
Then all good feeling's gone
Would you want to know everything at once?
Or nothing at all?
Would you want to feel everything at once?
Or never at all?
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4. |
Summer All Over Again
02:56
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Summer all over again And I am
Still stuck in my own head
Summer all over again And I am
Still stuck in my own head
Is it
My temperament? I know it isn't
10 out of 10
I try to manage
But I feel panic
I've tried it all except I can't just vanish
Summer all over again And I am
Still stuck in my own head
Running from everything I can't
Just live in the moment
I'm nostalgic
For things I wish
For
That haven't even happened yet
I try to manage But I feel panic
I tried it all except I can't just vanish
It's like I'm missing things
Even as they're happening Right in front of me
Summer all over again
And I am
Still fucked in my own head
Summer all over again And I am
Still stuck in my own head
Running from everything I can't
Just live in the moment
Summer all over again And I am
Still stuck in my own head
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5. |
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Your voice cracked And I felt your words
Crawl down my back It slowed my world
I let you feel bad
I'm not proud of that
Teeth on the curb Looking up at the world
For all I lack
I sure got hurt
And I give it back
It slows my world
I make myself bad Why would I do that?
Teeth on the curb Looking up at the world
Now we're climbing that hill
And I'm running behind
Tilt my head back and yell
Will anything make me right?
Teeth on the curb
Looking up at the world
The world will still turn after it's my turn
Now we're running that hell
And I'm falling behind
Tilt my head back and yell
Will anything make me right?
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6. |
There Are Missing Years
02:59
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There are missing years
Where I haven't got any pictures
Not even sure I was there
It emptied my soul
My body went hollow
Been waiting for years
On a better tomorrow
All alone,
I struggle
I wish you were here
And I
Wish that i could just tell you
That you made me so much better
It emptied my soul
My body went hollow
Been for waiting years On a better tomorrow
All alone,
I struggle
Death by a thousand cuts
As though that's not enough
I'm barely hanging on
More rough just to come
It's not just tough love
I'm barely hanging on
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7. |
Offing
03:03
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It was often
I'd think of offing Myself
Getting my meds mixed
Advil for depression
Ibuprofen
For all my suffering
I'm not afraid of what I want
I am afraid it's already gone
I've tried to change my mind
A hundred times
Or like ninety-ninety
Am I one away from
My spirit getting high?
I could die
I'm not afraid of what I want
I am afraid it's already gone
The more I pick At the scab
The more I'm sick
At how it started
If you got approval I want it
If you got approval I want it
If you got approval I want it
If you got approval I want it
If you got approval I want it
If you got approval I want it
If you got approval I want it
If you got approval I want it
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8. |
Life Less Severe
03:46
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Hanging out the car window,
I almost got my head smoked
On the hill, top of the world,
Out of it, out of control
That's when life had us all
By our throats
That's until we made them
Let us go
We were heading in
To a tailspin
In a speeding car with nobody driving
Like a moment
You can hand pick
But you can never get back there again
I want
A life less severe
Want a
Coin picked out
From behind my ear,
A headlock
To make me see stars then make me disappear
When everybody around here
Was just as weird
3 hits off a white board marker,
I was like alright i want it harder
I've tried everything that you said was pure
Alright I want it harder
Got my hair trimmed
In the kitchen
It was sick, with the check mark in it
Like a moment
You can hand pick
But you can never get back there again
I want
A life less severe
Want a
Coin picked out from behind my ear,
A headlock
To make me see stars then make me disappear
When everyone around here
Was just as weird
I just want a life much less severe
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9. |
Demons In The House
02:52
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I'm not the only hell
That my parents raised In this house
I'm shell shocked now
Ever since that day
I watch out
Kept a knife under my mattress
Because the pastor said
There's something in our basement
It's as if that man was acting
Seeing evil in each other
And I wanted to be dead
What if I'm unwell?
Can everyone tell?
What if word gets out?
Demon's in the house
Straight out
Of his mouth
THE DEVIL
THE DEVIL
Became what I was afraid of
Or I just became myself
Brought home some friends that helped
They melt me down, they built me up
Could finally tell who I could trust
There is no hell, if it's all of us
I was moved to hear the truth
That is not what I'm used to
What if I'm unwell?
Can everyone tell?
What if word gets out?
Demon's in the house S
traight out
Of his mouth
THE DEVIL
THE DEVIL
Demons in the house
Demons in the house
Demons in the house
Demons in the house
I'm either feeling dead
Or terribly over it
If I ever wicked
I'll do it with my friends
Demons in the house
Demons in the house
Demons in the house
Demons in the house
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10. |
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Always had dark circles around my eyes,
Dark thoughts just came with my mind
The nice days aren't working, not once in a while
I'm gone, but i know I'll find
I haven't got the strength!
To stop this pain
I'm not afraid
Of that feeling
I am in a state!
It's embarrassing
Does that make
Me a weakling?
Guess I always have been
I want to feel high, I feel barely alive
Spent all my time, trying to get right
I haven't got the strength!
To stop this pain
I'm not afraid
Of that feeling
I am in a state!
It's embarrassing
Does that make
Me a weakling?
Guess I always have been
I know
You think there's something wrong with me
But you don't
Gotta say it so
Condescendingly
I haven't got the strength!
To stop this pain
I'm not afraid
Of that feeling
I am in a state!
It's embarrassing
Does that make
Me a weakling?
Guess I always have been
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11. |
Free For All
02:23
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Nowhere
Everywhere
All at once!
I was
Overwhelmed
Fucking up!
Here there
Unprepared
Undone!
I was
Overwhelmed
Fucking up!
The inmates
Will take
The penitentiary!
Snatching keys
They'll be free!
Nowhere Everywhere
All at once!
I was Overwhelmed
Fucking up!
Today is the day
To get it straight
Missed opportunity!
It makes me sick to think
It won't go differently
I've waited all too long
Scared to do it wrong!
Now it's done
And it's a free for all!
FREE FOR ALL!
FREE FOR ALL!
FREE FOR ALL!
FREE FOR ALL!
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12. |
Lake Ontario
02:28
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Swung the rope
I cannonball
Bad angle
Water down my throat
Left the water on
Swimming through my home
I just want
To be somewhere close
I thought I heard the sound
Of you coming around
I choked
Lungs full
Of lake Ontario
No hope
Speeding up slow-mo
Lungs full
Of lake Ontario
No hope
Speeding up slow-mo
Would my body float,
Or swallow me whole?
Is there no hope?
At the bottom of it all
Lungs full
Of lake Ontario
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13. |
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Drawing the sun back in the corner of the paper
As good as gone, someone erased it
You keep
Showing up for me
And I can be myself
That's who i'm trying to be
I showed up damaged beyond belief
You didn't hold it against me
You just believed in me
Drawing the sun back in the corner of the paper
I'm looking up, trying not to waste it
Breaking off a rose
Out front of a bigger home
Something to give you
Because I got none
I showed up damaged beyond belief
You didn't hold it against me
You just believed in me
Drawing the sun back in the corner of the paper
You were looking out, I wanted to thank you
Are you feeling gloomy
Even when you're with me?
If I come home this weekend
Would you wanna do something?
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