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Return
05:16
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A rich belief that no one sees you
Your ribbon cut from all the fates and
Some hound of Hell looking for handouts
The breath between things no one says
Author of a Poor Design
No one to steady your hand
All things lost in their own time
Where have you gone to?
Return to me
Return again
Return to me
Return again, hey
Some demimonde astride the crossing
You’re reaching for a life-like face
You stumble to the cellar door and
Your fragments glitter the eyelids of a child
Author of a Poor Design
No one to steady your gaze
And the things a pound of flesh can’t buy
Where have you gone to?
To return to me?
To return again?
Return to me
Return again
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Blooms of Oblivion
05:39
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Judas come close to me
Visit in visions
Tell me the story of how
you swing like an actor in the greyest of gardens
your tongue hanging free from you mouth
Down at the methadone clinic we waited
hoping to take home your cure
The curdling cowards, the crackle of china
you say that its making you pure
And just like Flowers for Algernon
something's diminished
There’s a love like you've never known pinned to your finish
One, two, six underfoot and you will rise
And in all of your blooms of oblivion
I love you
See?
Maker, I'm close to you
to deal your departure
to make sure you’re nailed to the ground
and all of the glamours, of treacherous traitors
have all run away from you now
I will stand over you
to breathe in your vapor
as pieces and parts, they dissolve
You plead you as failure
You wait for a savior
but leave knowing nothing’s resolved
And we bring flowers from Albion up to your vision
Hold back the love that you've never known
you've only this prison
Straight to the hangman’s noose, are we born this way?
Handing down a fistful of sorries you will never say
I love you
See?
Say
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Body
05:27
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Come if you’re able
tears like the leaves fall down
scenes from your table
we’re moving the body now
Some silence has lifted you from a world unkind
a shroud we have fitted
a sick sad world that you leave behind
but I hear you say…
“You know my arms are always around you”
Moving the body now
we’re moving the body now
A book, a piano
gifts from the muse, in your selfless way
my teacher, my feeder
this red hair’s going nowhere since you went away
I dream her, I see her
The softness of the hands I'm holding in my mind
If only I could keep her
I'm still a little girl that needs you one more time
You said your arms were always around me
I’m moving my body now
just moving my body now
though I’ve been reaching out
through all the years, and the years go by
though I can’t feel you now
- still I can’t feel you near my side
I can’t feel your arms around me
I can’t feel your arms around me anymore
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4. |
The Company
04:11
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So loud, that the company I keep is just mine
It’s the center of my troubles
And white is the color of the noise it’s making
And why I drink myself to sleep
Soak
Divide
Deform
Defiled, I
So quiet, the melody I sing that’s just mine
Is the center of my troubles
And life isn’t tethered, just a toll that’s taking
And why I go to sleep to leave here
Soaked
Divide
Deformed
Defiled
Soak
Divide
Deform
Defile
Ether’s way out
The soul is so much brighter now, without you
Ether’s way out
The soul is so much lighter now, without you
Ether’s way out
The soul is so much brighter now, without you
My whole life, some dark night, is so much brighter now,
without you
My whole life, some dark night, is so much brighter now,
without you
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5. |
Dancing Man
05:23
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time…
sweeps…
remembering you
Spin in the garden, in roses not red
Peach were the petals there instead
Poised in perfumes, anointed in blue
The orphans can smile for an afternoon
Keeps a balance, my gentlest friend
I know you from Adam, I’ve known you
All I’ve known of love
There in summer and there again in spring
Shoot me down Chinatown
And you’ll wear makeup and I’ll hide my mess
The urchins parade in their Sundays
Tear of Sodom and tears wept for Troy
But for you, friend, of joy
I see you there, Dancing Man
I knew you could sing
All of your poetry
All love
All I know of love
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Razor's Edge
04:10
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Spending all my money as the petty cash of youth runs out
Burying my body but the dogs keep digging
Lay around Lazarus, roll the stone - that I might feel
Just enough for both of us to let me rise through the eye of the needle
If you have something left, don’t be holding out
If you have something for me, don’t be holding out
‘Cause I’ll be dancing on the razor’s edge just to feel its power
To be heathen in the gasoline for cheap heat of an hour
I’ll be spinning like the girl in glass slippers at the last supper
There’s no need to check the weather as my winter’s never over
If you have something for me, don’t be holding out
Pass it to me honey as my sweetness and my lights dim down
Numbing out nightmare but I just keep grinning
Play it down, Magdalena, no one knows that you've come undone
Looking down the mirror at the demon that I have become
If you have something left, don’t be holding out
and if I have something left, I’m sure I haven’t found it
But I’ll be dancing on the razor’s edge just to feel its power
To be heaving in the gasoline for cheap heat of an hour
I’ll be spinning like the girl in glass slippers at the last supper
There’s no need to check the weather as my winter never ends
I’ll be dancing on the razor’s edge then
I’ll be spinning like the girl in glass then
If I had something left, I still haven’t found it
If I have something left, I might never find it out
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7. |
Citadel
05:39
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There is a fortress in my heart
I try to go there in my dream
aren’t any songs for me to sing
not in the fortress of my heart
Here comes the weight on me again
bone by piece I’m bricking me over
tier by tear,
I wave to you…
on my way down
most of my life
I was trained how
Just to lay down
and never ask why
I was trained how
Just to stay down
where its safe now - safe now
There’s a destroyer in my blood
who's handed down and waits for me
I have no air, I cannot breath
with the destroyer in my blood
Here comes the weight on me again
bone by piece I’m bricking me over
tier by tear,
I wave to you…
On my way down
most of my life
I’ve been trained how
Just to lay down
and never ask why
I stay down
where its safe now
am I safe now?
am I safe now?
Here in my citadel of self
I can be safe.
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8. |
In My Afterlife
05:01
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Taken to task in some Engine of Hell
I lacked the toll to cross the river there
someone forgot to put the sterling on my brow
Gone from a world, that I might sail
Taken to plow off this debt somehow
Somewhere in the outer planets
I think that its cold but I'm not sure that this is my body
I was robbed of my mask in some engine of Hell
I have a feeling that I might be here a while
you might want to call in a maid to help keep you clean
But I remembered all of your lines from life
And told them to my keeper
He said that you were funny but a liar
Some dark deceiver
Some dark deceiver.
Now I'm free drifting though Saturn’s debris
things cut and floating through a blackness that never seems to end
I think if I willed it, I could return home
But the warmth of the sun, it has become searing
I have a feeling that I might float here a while
Rift and directionless, that I might spin myself
But I remembered all of your lines from the living
And told them to my nearest keeper
A distant star there was laughing
Said you were funny and now we’re free
And now we’re free.
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Emma Ruth Rundle Portland, Oregon
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