1. |
Century long fire
04:56
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In our little bedrooms
We closed our eyes
Thinking it would
Appease the fire
We heard the screamings
From all the windows
We couldn't decipher
It faded in the snow
We couldn't stop
We couldn't stop the fire
It was growing
Growing everyday
And we, we should erase
All our memories
They poisoned our hearts
They made us scream
We couldn't stop
We couldn't stop the fire
It was growing
Growing everyday
(aaaah)
I'm slowly destroying myself
Becoming all I hate
Building my own hell
But I can't communicate
Believe me when I say
We'll build a bridge
Above the city
That will lead us all to HEAVEN
We said our prayers
And we broke our voice
We will come back again
And we, and we, AND WE
Let me say to you
What I think again
I think I did enough mistakes
Enough mistakes
(aaaah)
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2. |
Falling apart
04:08
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When people came to see me
they didn't see shit
Tubes inside of my head
Pushing the blood from within
Someday I'll feel better
I hope I won't be afraid to
Kill time like I used to
Now I'm just terrified of you
Let me fall apart again,
I'm scared of the people
Let me fall apart again
Cuz life is kind of meaningless
(take the train)
I've been twisted and torn
By the speed of the days
Sometimes I wish I was born
Light years away
Far away from this shitshow
The people dying around me
My grandma terminally ill
Stuck in parkinson's disease
A foot on the cliff
The other one in the void
I don't want to break down
Again again again
AGAIN
Let me fall apart again,
I'm scared of the people
Let me fall apart again
Cuz life is kind of meaningless
(take the train)
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3. |
Attention
03:54
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I don't want to have sex
I just want to succeed
I have little problems
With my self esteem
Do you cry at night ?
When you get rejected
Or when your best friend
Tells you to love yourself ?
Could I ask for a drink
I lied to get your attention
Would you be mine
Just for a little night
I like staging my life
Cuz it makes it seem like
It's an exciting one
It makes me feel alive
What is your favorite band
I hope we can't dance
To there most famous song
I prefer when they are long
Could I ask for a drink
I lied to get your attention
Would you be mine
Just for a little night
I won't go to your place
I'm terrified of sex
I don't want to come and
Go cry in your toilets
While your drunk as hell
Cuz your favorite drink's
Not a soft cocktail
And I'm too sober to fake
Could I ask for a drink
I lied to get your attention
Would you be mine
Just for a little night
I just don't want to be alone
Please don't believe me at all
I'm just asking
For those in the back
Who cares ?
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4. |
Take it slow
04:39
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I hope someday you’ll understand
That it’s never been so intense
I’m okay inside the plane
Just when is it gonna land ?
Is it just gonna fade
In the distance ?
Time deforms the images
Lost control and lost feelings
Is there a kid behind the frames
I don’t recall his first name
It’s vanishing
In small pieces
Disappearing
In the air
Sometimes I want to call my friends
When I’m crying in my bed
I always have trouble explaining
What’s going on inside my head
It’s not complex
It’s just a mess
Time deforms the images
Lost control and lost feelings
Is there a kid behind the frames
I don’t recall his first name
It’s vanishing
In small pieces
Disappearing
In the air
Time deforms the images
Lost control and lost feelings
Is there a kid behind the frames
I don’t recall his first name
It’s vanishing
In small pieces
Disappearing
In the air
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5. |
A little less cold
04:09
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I woke up on my own
As always I'm alone, I failed last night
I don't even want to know
Why I wanted to go, My first and last try
Tried to turn, tried to run
On my way home, chasing a lie
But I'll keep waking up
I don't want to stop
Even though it hurts
We can make this world
A little less cold
A little less cold
A little less cold
I try to dodge the calls
I was banging on the walls, the pain was sly
I can force myself
To be someone else, It's a hard lie
Haven't ever been
Haven't ever been happy at least just once
But I'll keep waking up
I don't want to stop
Even though it hurts
We can make this world
A little less cold
A little less cold
A little less cold
A little less cold
A little less cold
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6. |
Mental Health
04:25
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I can't deny my mental health is really on the decline
But it's fine, I chose to stay, I chose to say that I'm fine
Walking along the sidewalk, talking to some pigeons
And when my friends will call, I'll tell them that I'm not alone
I'm not alone...
No conversations
Waiting for someone
Nobody listens
Cuz nobody cares enough
The story's not funny at all, so why are people laughing ?
I'm the show, I'm the show. Hope you're having a good time
I hate that part of the song where the chorus just ends
Wishing it could go on and on, 'til we get tired of the dance
the dance...
No conversations
Waiting for someone
Nobody listens
Cuz nobody cares enough
I'm slowly destroying myself
But they won't notice
I'm on my decline
But they won't notice
The orchestra is still playing
So just dance, dance, dance
The orchestra is playing for you
So just dance, dance, dance
DANCE
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7. |
So heavy
02:19
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Maybe one day
I'll find sleep
I'll manage to find an escape
I hear the birds
It's the middle of march
Sunbeams in my sunken eyes
Oh I'm 18 now
I know the world will keep on spinning
Even if I had to disappear
I'll be there with you one day
And we'll be surfin the skies
But maybe one day
I'll find love
I'll run away from this city
That I have
Always tried to dodge
And I'd stop being so lonely
I was born to never be free
But as always I get so caught in the dream
That one day I'll wake up from this
Reality seems so distant from me
Yet my heart seems so heavy
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8. |
The spiral
03:28
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Let me rest on your chest
It just feeds my pain
You spin in my head
I wish it had left
Inside my heart there's a sinking feeling
Everytime you dance with him
I can't help it, when I'm crying
I'm in my bed, looking for help
Spinning again, you numb my pain
But you feed it, my love will not change
You're my pain
Will you listen to me
If I try to speak
My heart is falling
We're all mentally ill
Waiting for my train
But it never came
Could you take my hand
One last day...
Is there a drug, that's strong enough
To make my brain forget your face
So I can just, just live again
You paralyzed my love but I can't
Live without it
I can't help it, when I'm crying
I'm in my bed, looking for help
Spinning again, you numb my pain
But you feed it, my love will not change
You're my pain
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9. |
Almost gave up
05:22
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The train stops, people walk in
Faces showing nothing in
Boring talks and music
Never felt so lonely
Happy to blend in
This city is empty
An empty bottle
We are bubbles in
the ocean's ripples
Almost gave up
When it stopped
It will start again
Start again
Almost gave up
When it stopped
It will start again
Start again
Crushed in by people's shoulders
Screaming til it stops to hurt
Abuse got no reaction
They just let it happen
And scream hard
they might hear you
Make it cold and sincere
So one day they'll notice
And scream back with tears
And never look back
Don't fear death
We're all gonna die
Don't let that stop you
Almost gave up
When it stopped
It will start again
Start again
Almost gave up
When it stopped
It will start again
Start again
Almost gave up
When it stopped
It will start again
Start again
Almost gave up
When it stopped
It will start again
Start again
Start again...
Start again...
Don't breakdown
Your wheeping is fuel
For the people who make the rules
And fly away little bird
Scream them those goddamn words
They are beautiful
Only when they come
From the bottom of your guts
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10. |
Stockholm
11:21
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I failed last night, again
And all my friends are going to sleep
I'm five days past my birthday party
But I never really thought about it
I never realized how stupid it was
It didn't stop me from drinking
Or from creating a tinder account
Or from ever matching with anyone
Ooooooooh
I still get bad thoughts in the subway
I still think about you everyday
I still think I'm a toxic friend
I still want to see all of them
There is no cure
I am the disease
There is no cure
I am the disease
So now that I've blown the candles
I realize I couldn't handle
Their looks and their giggles
Pressuring me to pop a bottle
Took a look at your place
Saw you hid all the mess
To fake that it was clean
You know how messy I can be
I still think you lied to me
Comforted me with your fantasies
Telling me that one day
We'll get away
I'm not my parents' son
I was born in an ocean
An ocean of marketing schemes
That worked on me perfectly
I'm in a car that only accelerates
But I think they removed the brakes
Try to find a home in a battlefield
Kept under a giant metal shield
Try to pay your debts and try to forget
Did they actually want us to feel depressed
Speeding
Speeding
Speeding
The train
Until my inevitable death
I'm in a car that only accelerates
But I think they removed the brakes
Maybe we could have seen colors if we weren't all colorblind
I gotta feed my kids but when it'll collapse it won't matter... really...
Sometimes my shoulders feel so heavy, I wanna give up
Sometimes stopping the fight's... - It's tempting
It took us years to get to this point
We never knew why we wanted it
People have grown up since
I've been stuck on my past mistakes
A few little things
Some words I shouldn't have said
Or shouldn't have sung
And shouldn't have erased
I'm in love with my abusers
Isolation is a deadly weapon
I'm in love with my abusers
Isolation is a deadly weapon
I woke up one day
I couldn't walk nor could I stand
My body couldn't resist
Now I think I understand
Jerome are you still proud of me ?
Jerome are you still proud of me ?
Take care of Karen please...
Take care of Karen please...
There is no cure
I am the disease
There is no cure
I am the disease
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11. |
Paris I hate you
07:55
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Paris I hate you,
I hate you so much
With your thousand doors
To get us lost
The pressure to succeed
No matter the cost
No place where people
Can talk
Paris I hate you,
Please don't ever change
You're just like an
Abusive girlfriend
The shock when people
Get hit by a train
They leave a sigh
On our grave
Paris I hate you so much
Paris I hate you,
you're the sickness
Drugstores in every
Fucking place
Addicted to your sleeping pills
They help me to keep up
With your beat
Oh Paris tell me why
Tell me why it's so still
Why do I cry myself
To sleep
I'll drink myself to death
Every week
Until my body
Can't take it
Paris I hate you,
You changed me
Killed the child in my heart
Only, you replaced it
with sex and hate
We think we are complex
But we ain't
Paris, I'm drunk
I don't know where to go
Should I come home
Scrip another show
But I've no house here
Home is where your mind is
Home is where your mind is...
So don't answer no calls
'Cause I won't be here tomorrow
So don't answer no calls
'Cause I won't be here tomorrow
So don't answer no calls
'Cause I won't be here tomorrow
So don't answer no calls
'Cause I won't be here tomorrow
This city is a maze
It's easy to get in
It's harder to leave it
But you know I don't want to learn
To learn
Paris, I hate you
I don't want to change
Paris I'm your child
Give me respect
I'm everything I ever hated
It's not okay...
Paris
Cut the thread that forces me to stay...
... So I can be free
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